Here we go Again?
My mind and emotions are all over the place at the moment.
At the outset, let me say that at this point nothing is certain. Nothing has been confirmed.
OK. So for a while (over a year) my wife and I have noticed an unexplained lump on the back of my eldest daughter's neck. Every night when we brush her teeth we have a little check and its there. We think it comes and goes but it has definitely been there for at least the last month.
So today Verity, my wife, took her to the doctors to get it checked out. He confirmed that there was indeed a lump there, an inflamed lymph node. He did some further investigation and found a few more lumps in her groin.
Knowing my history with non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma, he has now referred her to the consultant pediatrician at the hospital. So we are waiting and praying.
The finding of lumps in the exact same places where lumps were found on me has brought back some painful memories and has left us fighting back thoughts that this will inevitably lead down the same path - because it might not.
When I went through it that was bad enough. Thinking that my precious 4 and 1/2 year old daughter may have to go through it too is unbearable!
As I've said earlier, at this point nothing is known for certain.
Please can you join with my family in prayer for our precious girl? Praying that she will be healed, that this will not be the cancer we fear, that she will not have years of pain and illness ahead of her.
Her name is Katrina.
As a Dad all I want to do is to protect my girl. When it's an illness that creeps up on the inside there's nothing I can do. I find myself feeling powerless and out of control. Once gain I need to let go and trust that God is in control - (and breathe)!